Molly woke up at 3:30 am. Nothing was wrong with her, she was just awake. When I got out of bed Alivia (who was sleeping with me) also got up and followed me around the house. I woke Matt up off the couch and sent him to bed with Alivia so I could have the couch with Molly.
We watched a little tv together and she rolled all over me and eventually fell asleep. I was into a show at that time so I stayed up, holding my little girl and watching her sleep. When I finally decided to get up and put her back into her bed I cradled her tiny sleeping body in my arms and stood up. I watched her little mouth squirm. I noticed how much her hair has grown lately and I just breathed in the moment and tried to lock it into my memory. So sweet and so amazing.
After putting Molly back to bed I crawled into bed where Alivia rolled over and cuddled my head. (its like sleeping with a cat) I cuddled back and thought to myself how full my arms are all the time. Not just during the day but 24 hours a day 7 days a week I am surrounded by little loving people.
When I got up this morning. I woke Marlin up and we sat on the couch together snuggling under his ball blankie and talked.
I am sooooo tired today. Instead of being grumpy I am grateful. Grateful to be surrounded by so much love. Who cares if I never get a full night's sleep agian.